When you are faced with your own mortality it allows for much soul searching and trying to make sense of the world and your place in it.
So here I sit 12 months after I went into hospital with Guillain-Barré Syndrome and I am now happy and healthy once again with only a couple of small outstanding issues that I continue to deal with. Firstly nerve damage in my feet and when I get tired my right eye plays up a little and exhaustion that still sneaks up on me but in the scheme of how things were a year ago when I was paralysed and my lungs were about to collapse I now see myself once again as a fit and active man who is blessed to still be here.
On the mend a year ago with my first drink!
I still think about that time a year ago and reflect on the weeks that I was in hospital, the solitude, the time when I couldn’t speak, the time I had to learn to walk, to dress myself, to wash and more. I think that when you are faced with something like that you tend to look at things differently when you come out the other side.
I have always been a really positive person in my life and that is one of the things that allowed me to stay on top of my emotional response to having GBS. I can remember being asked on more than one occasion if I wanted to be put on anti depressants and each time it was not something that I would consider because even when I was at my worst physically I always managed to focus on the positive and looking coming through this as best as I could.
How happy do I look here!
Not really knowing anything about it at the beginning was interesting because I really did not know what to expect and I had to rely on those around me to stay in top of things and to guide me forward. This was mainly thanks to my beloved, my daughter, the gorgeous Sally, Karen, Robbie and Rod and many others who were always there with a smile and a hug.
I never once went into a black hole but stayed focussed on getting better and getting on with my life and I am so pleased to be able to sit here 1 year on, back in a great space and looking forward to so much more and accepting the challenges that life have to offer me.
It was the most amazing chance to learn some positive life lessons about who and what I am and where I want to go. It also allowed me to realise what was really important in my life – my divine family, friends and each and every person that I come into contact with who each embrace, love and accept me for who I am…and after all that is all I can really ask for.
In return I hope that I am able to give them much love, support and joy.
Onwards and upwards is what I stay focussed on and getting on with the most wonderful life!